timeout

what have i done, what have i done
how could i be so blind
all is lost, where was i
spoiled all, spoiled all
everything's gone all wrong

but i never intended all this madness, never
and nobody really understood
well how could they?
that all i've ever wanted was to bring them something great
why does nothing ever turn out like it should?
Well, what the heck and went and did my best
and by god i really tasted something swell, that's right
and for a moment, why, I even touched the sky
and at least I left some stories they can tell, I did
and for the first time since I can't remember when
I felt just like my old bony self again
and I, Jack, the Pumpkin King-- that's right, I AM THE PUMPKIN KING

when there's nothing in it, you'll make me sniffle to hand me your hanky so i can fold i neat and put it in your empty pocket

"Truth is the first casualty of war."

The therapy chair and a pink balloon sneaks across a green while the silent seconds run out.

The Owl is an object to satisfy my addiction of guilt.

December Dreams

We'd find some beautiful place to get lost...

Ocsicnarf Nas

12/5/07
if you imagine everyone watching you, the Performer imagines a continuous and sizeable audience --- even when there is none. Classic backstage musical turned nightmare.
The Ego overtakes the heart
The Id takes over the loins
The Superego takes over the brain

12/27/07 -
another show where i forgot my lines
a scene in a classroom - that i feel i know so well - i'm the teacher...
we're milling about.... am i the teacher to begin with?
it's an opening exposition song - i end up by the back table looking at a fully written on blackboard... mark on my left, dylan on my right.... they're cracking up -- like the whole play is a joke to them and they've been forced into it --- i slide over to the right...suddenly not rememebering the lines... the musics' approaching..... aand i think to myself that it will automatically come back to me because i've sung the lines so many times - and it doesn't come - the music hits -- i hear the backup singer ? quitely in the background.... and try and put it together -- it seems like it'd be a very nice show

Jamie, jimmy, michael, this house, that job....
these are the challenges you face
and it is these choices that you make today that will affect the rest of your life

12/29/07

new archetype facets to explore:
boy in jungle: ....brother, initiated, join me, temptation,
boy (submission) to man (domination) -- gaining power, use facets of Stag-God story -

woman on stage: ..... sins of the heart, murder, crime, passion--
pain -

as the story and the growth of the main character progresses, the archetypes lives become more intertwined (boy dressing up with woman.... becoming hardened/jaded with man) until they lose their "costumes" revealing the same character..... the final image of a mirror.